Persistence with Lil’ Troy

Inspiration from the unexpected.

I am blessed with a plethora of astrologically inclined friends, and in case you don’t have those, I’ve got news for you: Mercury is in retrograde (so I hear).

Do I really believe in astrology? I’m going to go with a blanket “No, but it’s good to keep an agnostic mind about a few innocent things [i.e. the existence of a higher power/being, aliens, and other phenomena we cannot really answer with 100% certainty].” Just as menstrual cycles sync up with the moon and the moon controls tides, I am open to a the magic of outer space and the moon.

So maybe I don’t have both feet in astrology, but I’ll be damned because if there were ever a time Mercury was showing me was in retrograde, it’s doing a great job.

During these times, I remember living in the dorms at UNO during the hot summer of 2008 with my friend Annie. We had to get up super early for work one day, and, at the time, we were both pretty miserable in general. I was standing in my room when I heard her very sadly and slowly sing this line from Lil’ Troy’s “Wanna Be A Baller”:

But there’s got to be a better way!
A better way, better way, yeah

Between the early morning loopiness and general exhaustion with our situation, I began laughing hysterically. How random and how true! And how wonderful that Annie and I were together in this time. We both trudged off to work, miserable but together, singing the line, like a lost version of two of the seven dwarves.

This line has stuck with me throughout the years when the going gets tough. The intonation of words in the song makes it difficult to tell if the line is one of hopeful desperation, persistence, or maybe even both. That is how I feel today: a little bit of it all and riding out the planetary shift today. Tomorrow. The next day. Forever